Hello?

Words are powerful...but sometimes I need more than words...

Don't tell me that you care...show it...

It's the little things that you do that count...

Just the tiny little things that make it all matters...

I Will Remember

人长大了。。
思想改变了。。
方向改变了。。

我差一点忘记了。。。

做人最重要的是情和义

我会牢牢地记住的。

Time To Blog =)

wow!!I've abandoned this poor little blog since July!!
dear bloggie: don't get angry at me k..sayang sayang ^_^

There were certainly loads of happenings between July until today (Sept)

I've been through these:

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O_o
=O
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*^%^%$%$#%

average mood level ----> =)

I didn't go home this weekend..can you believe it?!?!?
No?

too bad because you gotta believe it!!! =P

attended the psychological workshop conducted by our @ alumni Ren Chang...
and my personality type is ISTJ =)
see it here! =P

in summary it says:

• very loyal, faithful, and dependable (ahem ahem =P)
• believe in laws and traditions (ya~~I know I'm kolot laaa....)
• has strong sense of duty (and that explains why I got unlimited number of tasks!!)
• responsible parent (I'll be a good mom!! =D)

HAHAHA!!
but the personality depends on situations, in some situations we tend to use our 'contextual personality'...and I think that ISTJ is my contextual personality =P

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I can't believe that I watched Up the 3rd time!!!
but it's nice ma... =P

went for movie after workshop with 4 not-so-gentle gentlemen -- skit, william, imran, & lwl

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Life has been difficult and stress for me these days...I can't wait for my sem break to start on 11 Nov =(

But I gotta keep on going because I know that life goes on~ (bla bla bla...)

Thanks to this poster (below) that I took from my sis...it gave me my daily direction! =D
I pasted it on the board right above my study table in hostel, everyday I wake up, put on my specs, and randomly choose a column to be practiced for the day =)

My direction of the day :

Listening Is The Opportunity To Build Relationships -
through trust and understanding

1 - 28 July 2009

I need to write.

自从上一封至今。。我都过得很不开心。。

我很需要依靠。。我很需要你们的肩膀。。

请原谅我不够坚强。。不够坚持。。不够成熟。。

我不喜欢哭。。我真的不喜欢。。我不喜欢被看见脆弱的我。。

待会儿会有谁。。我不想去想了。。也不想再烦了。

A 3 Minutes Beautiful Sight

I've been missing for quite some time (if you actually realised)

There are many things that I wanted to update in my blog these few weeks...but I do not know how to...

From not getting something that I want...

...till I got something I do not want...

...till I got something I want...

...till losing something I wanted...

...till I found out what I want...

...till I found out what I do not want.

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I saw this when I was in the car with my daddy, It was very, very beautiful......

I was sooo excited, I bet my dad wished to kick me out of the car =P

But, it was gone after awhile, it wasn't really gone, but it was no longer as beautiful as it was 3 minutes ago...

And I remained back to my seat.

When it's gone, it's gone...

Not being pessimistic...but rational I am instead...beautiful things come only once...I know I won't be able to see the same beautiful painting being hung up in the sky anymore...maybe a similar one someday =) However, it will remain in my heart...And that is what matters =)

Some people say that you hold the remote control to control on how do you want to play your life chapters...but remember......

No rewind, no pause, no replay, and no fastforward buttons on your remote control...only PLAY or STOP......

I PLAY =)

My First OC Experience

I'm home...

MYC 2009 has officially ended...

I cried a lot...which I didn't expect them at all...

I cried because I want to sleep more...

I cried because I was very angry...

I cried because I was disappointed...

But, the one I remember most...the one I want to remember most is...

I cried because I was amazed...

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Being an organizing committee of MIRACLE is totally an amazing experience in my @ journey...

I didn't regret applying for it half a year ago...there were many problems we faced...many crisis situation to manage...many walls we hit our heads on until we finally found the way to get to the other side of the wall...it was painful to keep falling...but it was amazing on how we strive to stand up no matter how many times we fall...how each of us supports each other to stand up together...

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I learned a lot about myself...I demand things to be perfect...I demand people to meet my expectations...I demand efficiency and effectiveness...

I'm a demanding person ='(

I will learn to adjust my expectations with the abilities and personalities of others =)

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I was feeling so frustrated and sad when I got to know some of the teenagers now are so pampered and spoilt...I don't like them to be like that...We want to change them..We want them to grow...We want them to understand...

4 girls, their name tags got confiscated by me because they abandoned the food we prepared for them and instead they bought food from the cafe...and we had to throw away the food which are fully-packed in dozens of containers after every meal...

After a sharing session, all 4 of them came to me, crying very badly, they said:

"Amanda, we are very very very sorry about what happened just now, we were really pissed of when you took away our name tags (I bet they cursed me teruk teruk...), we didn't realise what wrong we had done, now we finally understand, we feel so guilty, we didn't know how hurt the OCs are when we abandoned the food, we were immature, we finally understand, can you all please forgive us?" (they were crying sooo badly...)

Oh my God...you know how I felt at that moment?I shared this to all the OCs...they need to know...we did it...we have made the difference in them through MIRACLE...they grew...

All the complaints and curses OCs had, were well paid off...at the end...it's all worthy =D

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We started our Nightstalk practice only 15 minutes before the session starts...it takes trust and cooperation from everyone to succeed in the session...

And the feedbacks we got from delegates were..."it was soo cool!!!" ^^

OC rocks!!! =D

My favourite quote by chin chin : "一个大男人拿着个pad桶去训人, 好man阿!"

(please refer to Kaiser Lu for more details on this...hahaha!!!)

For Daddy & Mommy

21 years ago, I arrived to this beautiful world.

I receive presents from family and friends on my birthday, but I do not deserve them, I already received the best gift ever exactly 21 years ago...

Here are the ones who deserve to receive presents and kisses on this special day of mine...

To my life-givers (daddy & mommy),
Thank you for giving me this life that has given me so much all these years. Thank you for not giving me up although I came when you were having hard times in financial after the financial crisis. Thank you for giving me this family.

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To Mommy,

Thank you for giving me a life. It is the best gift you and daddy have given to me. Thank you for bearing the pain just to allow me to be part of this family. Thank you for not giving up on me when I disappoint you in my studies. Thank you for not giving up on me when I needed your 24/7 care for 2 years when I was hospitalized. Thank you for arguing with the auntie next to my bed in hospital just to get the fan for me. Thank you for carrying me to the classroom. Thank you for waking up earlier than me every morning just to prepare milo for me and to send me to school.

Thank you...

I Love You Mommy!

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To Daddy,

Thank you for taking leave from work every year on my birthday. Thank you for waking up middle of the night to feed me milk. Thank you for ordering Happy Meal from McDonald's during lunch time at work just because I wanted the toys. Thank you for working so hard just to give me the best, the best! Thank you for walking with me in every boutiques in the shopping mall just to buy me a jacket that I wanted to have. Thank you for making me milo every morning before you send me to work.

Thank you...

I Love You Daddy!

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Dear Ka Jie,

Thank you for giving me advices in my studies. Thank you for accepting the blames on the wrongs I did. Thank you for buying me a handphone to encourage me in my studies. Thank you for taking care of me when I was a toddler. Thank you for advising me what is right and what is wrong although there are times that I don't agree with you. Thank you for being stern to me. Thank you...that you really care.

Thank you...

I Love You Ka Jie!

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Dear Yi Jie,

Thank you for pinching me when I was a baby, it made me feel warm when I thought of it. Thank you for asking how I am every week you see me. Thank you for persuading mommy to let me go out with my friends when I was very young. Thank you for giving me advices in my teenage life. Thank you for doing make-up for me, you want me to look pretty. Thank you for remembering me when you see something nice. Thank you for loving your mui mui. Thank you for spoiling me.

Thank you...

I Love You Yi Jie.

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It is my 21st birthday, it is the day I should THANK my parents for giving me this day.

I love my life, the one that YOU have given me.

~Thank you Daddy & Mommy~

A Question Seeking For Its Answer

A friend asked me to summarize my MIRACLE experience in one sentence.

It reminds me of what I did with my teammies yesterday...

Woke up early in the morning...thinking of what response I would get from the Ministry of Education..

"Is it approved?"
"Will I be so lucky to get the letter today?"
"Should I call?"
"Will the person-in-charge be there?"
"Do they have meeting?"
"Will we be late?"

I had a mixed feeling when Kaiser drove me and Sheahnie to Putrajaya..I kept wishing silently in my mind..I was excited..I was worried..I was nervous..I was paranoid when we took the wrong direction..I was afraid we cannot make it on time..

It has not been approved yet.

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Rushed to the faculty to check on the hall booking approval status.

The office has closed at 11.30am for friday prayers.

"Hopefully they will come back to work in the afternoon"

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Sheahnie suggested to bring the container to show the cooking auntie.

"Hmm..the aunties looked promising..yeah!"

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After lunch, waited for Shin for the booklets to be stapled (his baby =)).

I did not agree to fold them 1st, Shin insisted to fold them 1st.

"Fine!"

So all of us stood there to fold the booklets.

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Back to kolej, discussed the nightstalk scenes.

Everyone gave in their best exciting ideas.

"The Last Birthday Ever to be released soon"

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*Dong Dong Dong*

Clock strikes at 3pm

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100 pillows arrived thanks to Sin Ying, Wei Heng, Jiao Jiao, Kaiser, Sheahnie, Li Pin, Jin Long.

They got the best price in the town!!!

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The plenary hall has been successfully booked!

5 days...all for miracle...

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Cafeteria people refused to borrow us their cafe.

We'll just sit stand squad around to eat =)

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Failed to manja the 'pengangkutan abang' for 2 more bus.

We'll rent then..hmph!

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Went to pick up facilitator from Bangladesh from the airport, Kaiser drove Li Pin and me.

The car was very noisy, we chit chat alot...We finally reached KLIA =)
Checked the flight arrival time, couldn't find the flight number.

Kaiser: "Oh my GOSH!!!"

Yes, we went to the wrong airport...we should go to LCCT =.=

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Reached back to kolej at 12.44am.

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So, back to my friend's question:

"summarize your MIRACLE experience in one sentence."

The above was only ONE day, I don't think I can make it in one sentence.

All I can tell you now is......

"I Want To Do It Again"

Single?

I'm at my Subang home now...I should be at UPM to help out other OCs of MIRACLE...but I can't go back today...

I got nothing much to do now..so I want to blog!
Can I?? Can I??
Can right?!?!
please......
CAN!
YAY!!
YEAH!! =)

So...what to blog about??
erm...erm...
I know it!
I shall write something on the same old question people have been asking me...

"When want to get a boyfren?"

So my answer goes like this......

Once upon a time... ... ...
*snore*
*snore*
*snore*

HAHAHA!!

Okay Okay...serious serious...!

I'm contented and happy with the way I live right now......without a boyfren ;)
Maybe because my 'utility level' is still at the satisfaction level, although not at the optimum level =D ( I paid attention to economics classes =P)
Or maybe it was due to the bad experiences I have had...that I would not want to give myself any extra headaches or tears and bump into brick walls when I already know there is one.. o.O
I have spent too much of my time on people that do not worth my time and tears..
And I guess that's the reason why I'm not spending any on anyone now =)

You can say that I'm being passive or objective...but I know what is best for myself...so far ;)
There are friends who always suggest to me: "why not you try it out first?"
And I would say: "Why would I want to try on something that I know it is not for me?"
Or: "Since you are single now, why not try and see leh?"
And I would say: "no boyfren won't die wan lor...ok??"

Take this as an example:
Would you try on a 30cm pants when you know that your waist is just 24cm??
Would you try on a XXL shirt when you know that you are as skinny as a skeleton??

If your answers are YES...then please stop reading this...we are totally on the different sections in a bookstore ^^

So far, I'm enjoying my live revolving around cute friends...sweet teammies...caring best friends eventhough they are all around the globe...activities...and most important of all...my family...

I spend too little time with my family since I started my uni life...it is obvious when I often hear them chatting about the places they went to makan and the clothes they bought during operasi-membeli-belah...I've missed so much from my family outings!! =(

But I had fun in uni also what (bluek!!) =P
Thanks to Imran & Kaiser who always bring us out to main-main...daki-daki gunung...tengok-tengok matahari...tonton-tonton wayang...minum-minum teh...makan-makan malam...like tak habis-habis only... =P

I will get into a relationship only when I found the right one (could be tomorrow?hahaha) =D

So right now...I'm extending my membership in The Singles' Club ^o^

sunset?sunrise?or both?

I love sunset =)

And my lovely friends brought me to watch sunset!!! =D
We (Kaiser, Tammy, Johanna, Imran, & I) went to Putrajaya for the beautiful sunset!! ^^
But it was too hazy to see the sun wave bye-bye to us =(

This pic was taken with the risk of falling down to the other side which was reeeaaallly high~~
It was my first sunset experience!! happie happie!! =D

I really love the times when a busy day is finally over...
and things start to get back to its normal pace...
less cars on the road...
family members are home to share their daily stories at the dining table...
take a deep breathe and think of the things you did today...
do not hold on to regrets over things you have not done today...
but be grateful of the things you have done today =)

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So what's next??

Makan-makan with the MYC family at Old Town!! ^^

A bunch of cute bunnies! ^0^

Li Pin, Chin Chin, and Me

These bunch of cuties have added all sorts of colours into my uni life!! ^^

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The next morning!!
Sunrise!!
Broga Hill!!!
Kaiser woke us up at 5am...yes...5am!!! ='(

It took us about 45 minutes to reach up to the hill..(we were conned that it'll only take 5mins!!)
It was a physical challenging activity early in the morning...

Finally.........

YES!!!

so tired.....

yay!! =D

it was pretty high...so scary~~ but fun lah... =P

nice hor? nice hor?

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I had loads of fun yesterday till today...and guess where am I going tomorrow??

Templer Park Waterfall!!!
YAY!!! =D